Glenn

I lost a very close friend/boyfriend of mine 8 years ago this month. Glenn Anderson. He died of a heroin over dose. Every time around this year I can't stop thinking about him. There is nothing like loosing someone that you were so close to for years, someone that you shared so many memories with, he was my roommate at times, my boyfriend at times but mostly my close friend I could always call on for anything.
8 years ago in August he decided to take a trip to California before he was to enlist into the military. He had some issues with drugs but was trying to go down the right path. He went to California with a known heroin addict. I spoke with him the day before he died and he seemed to be doing well, he did not tell me that only a few nights before he had taken heroin and overdosed in Mexico, I don't think he wanted to scare me, the last words we ever spoke were a friendly "I love you" and I'm so glad we did speak, I was so mad at him for going to California in the first place with a junkie and we had fought right before he left. They came back to California after the Mexico stint that I was unaware of and did it again only this time was the last time, he died.
When his mom called me I just knew it in her voice. At first I started to tell her that I just spoke with him and he's fine, I was wrong. Amazing how you just know without words of it, I could feel it. So many things in this city remind me of him and bring back so many old memories. Since he died in another State I always think this just has to be some trick up his sleeve, that he's out there somewhere, Maybe in Cuba or traveling the world as he loved to do. It would be so much like him to play a trick like that. He was cremated and sent back here for his funeral so I always thought maybe just maybe that was not him. I could see it now if he were here today he'd be laughing at my suburban life. He was an awesome person and I'm so happy that I was able to know him while he was here.

This song keeps playing in my head when I think of Glenn

The Fray - How to Save A Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you


As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

After his death was a huge transition in my life, while I never did heroin, I was not leading a very good life. Thankfully to God I met Jeff soon after Glenn passed and the rest is history, married the love of my life, have 3 wonderful boys & an awesome step son, my life could not be better.